"Why are you fearful, O ye of little faith?"
I went to church this morning. It was the first time in a couple of weeks, (which is a long time for me!) and it was the first sunday of the month so we took communion. I was really late, because I attempted to make the 8am service this morning since I was going to lunch with my grandma.
The message was inspiring, and he spoke about avoiding sin because it so often ruins lives, and fixing our hearts on Jesus and God's will.
Afterwards, I went to the prayer room and asked one of the "mama's" to pray for my trip to France, and my family as I go. In her prayer she said that everything would be great, and that everything that comes from God is good, and asked Him to help me be a teacher that He would be proud of. Afterwards I told her I was hoping for the best, and she looked at me like I was crazy! lol! I fumbled a little bit, and said "I'm believing it will turn out okay." ERRRRR, wrong answer. Then I stuttered "I know everything will be great." This seemed to satisfy her, because she said okay and hugged me.
After that I realized, I really need to work on my faith! I know God is sending me on this journey to France, and that He has a purpose for me there and that He will never leave me or let me fall. The purpose of my faith and the reason I follow Him is because of all the great things He's already done in my life, and because I know that I can trust Him. So why do I worry all the time? To be honest... I'm not even sure what I'm so uncertain about! I have no real reason to fear, and so I always give myself dumb things to worry about just so I don't "have my hopes up." This in itself is against my religion, because we are instructed to operate in hope, faith and love. I think it might be some sort of control issue, like I want to be in control of how sad I feel, or how dissapointed I get, by being prepared for the worst. But it just makes me fearful for nothing, and I waste precious time that could be spent happy and living in the moment!
So I declare it right now, MY MOVE TO FRANCE WILL BE SUCCESSFUL, I WILL BE HAPPY, I WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE AS A TEACHER IN FRANCE!
This I claim in Jesus name,
<3
Francesca
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